Out of the Loop

Right now in my life I feel SO out of the loop in every aspect. Firstly, Auntie Carol doesn't get the newspaper and doesn't have cable so I don't know what is going on in the world. Secondly, many of my friends back in Tbay have stopped responding to email and most of the them don't phone.

I don't phone much either. The phone isn't mine and I don't want to call long distance too often. But I do email a lot but I found a lot of them were not writing me back so now I have no idea what is going on with them either. I'm feeling kinda homesick right now so I wish they would write.

I've even got in the habit of sending cards and post cards to them through snail mail but only one has written back. :(

I have found the solution to my world/national news deprivation though! I've learned that there are two mini newspapers 24 and Metro that are free on corners and in the subway station. The news is usually a day old but it still keeps me informed at least. I can pick up a copy of 24 while I wait for the bus in the morning on the corner. It's not Globe and Mail quality but hey for free what more can you expect.

Actually I find there are TONS of free publications in Toronto. All the rental magazines are free here. Which is helpful to me in the apartment search.

I did go out and buy a Globe and Mail on Saturday. Greg and I are thinking we'll subscribe to the Saturday Globe once we get a place. It's a good paper for info and it's diverse. I want to be an informed Torontonian!

We've chatted a lot in the last few days about the apartment and what we want. We both agree on pretty much everything! The two of us really miss our TV and have agreed we want a good cable package! HELLO television I'm coming back. That and we aren't compromising on internet either! YAY! I'm hoping to set up a wireless network. We'll see how that goes since I'm not exactly a technical genius.

I really need something else to do now as I find I'm not as happy anymore. I'm not sure if it's homesickness, Dzaidziu being so sick, lonliness or boredom. I think they all play a role. I'm just trying to get through.

The other day I was in the stationary store that I love and I found a card that read "Everything is Ok in the end. If it's not ok then it is not the end." I bought the card and I'm going to frame it. It's something I always want to remember. I want to have hope that doesn't leave me when I need it most. I think that card will remind me of that.